>> Yesterday I had it in bad with some friends over a situation took long and personal to mention in detail here. Let's just say it involved a small level of harassment by someone during the course of some volunteer work I do and I wanted to call the police if this person did it again. I feel I would be justified in doing so given the circumstances, but some friends/fellow volunteers said no way, and we got into an argument. Even though other friends backed me on the idea, I was very hurt and I obsessed on it for much of the rest of the day. In fact, I have obsessed about the harassment itself, which is not serious enough to warrant it. If I did call the police on the person, the situation is only serious enough that they might tell them to lay off.
>> This is just the latest symptom of a long-standing problem. I don't really suffer from anxiety anymore, but I still obsess. I've come across on this website often as a strong-willed, strong-headed person who has it together, but there are times like today and yesterday when I don't. I found myself in the middle of the night last night so filled with anger and hurt that for a few moments I punched my pillow and screamed into it. I have a very hard time taking attacks from people, particularly when they come from so-called friends.
>> I don't take meds, so please nobody advise me on that. My days with meds are over and they never helped me. I know many techniques on how to get obsessions under control, so it will be hard to say anything I haven't already heard. Maybe I just need words of encouragement right now to plug on. Right now I so much want just to let go of obsessing all through the day, to have my way of thinking return to how it was before this (OCD) began.
>> God bless you all.