I'm sorry for what you are going through. I find that putting my faith and trust in people almost always goes bad. People are people, we are imperfect, and if we try to exhalt a person to a level they do not need to be, we often get burnt. In the eyes of God you are unique and wonderfully made. But it's when we take our eyes off our creator is when we get into big trouble. I know, trust me, I've been there, done that. I've put my trust into women that simply can't live up to the expectations that I've ptu on them. But God has taught me something valuable. When all is said and done, He is the Master. God is the one that made you, the one that has a plan for your life. Christ very plainly points out in Matthew 6:31-33
"Take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or What shall we drink? or, What shall we wear? Your heavnely Father knowes that you have need of all these things. BUT SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD, AND HIS RIGHTOUSNESS; and all these things shall be added unto you."
God loves you, believe it or not He really does care. The way he's transformed my life and my attitudes, and the way he has used the terrible tragedies in life to build me up, I just want you to know God too. God Bless you, my email is [email protected] if you would like to talk about anything at all.