Posted by Dee on May 14, 2002:
In Reply to: HOCD,Please help i am in pain... posted by LIGEIA on May 14, 2002:
Everything you just wrote about, I have also thought and worried about. I have OCD and I am NOT gay. I remember when I was dating my husband and sometimes now during our marriage, I would have the same thoughts you do about your boyfriend. Couple weeks before our marriage, I was paralized with fear that I was just marrying him as a cover up to my homosexuality . I now know this is not true. I my OCD would also be triggered when we would go into the mall and shop. Looking at womens clothing would freak me out and make me think I was gay if I thought the outfit was pretty or sexy. Or I would worry that I would rather buy lesbian looking clothes and so on. It never ended. I am now 26 yrs. old, happily married and have a beautiful 16 month old baby girl.
The only way you are going to beat this thing is to not fight the thoughts and do Behavior therapy, that is how I have overcame it with the help of God. It still pops up from time to time but for the most part I have it under control.