I would say..it's not a problem for me homosexuality..that's why I don't care about saying or thinking about homosexuality even if i'm heterosexual...but I still have the doubt about the age of the mALE I SEXUALLY LOOKED AT...It's like my brain can't define if oit was an adult or an adolescent...I just can't
remember...but i can't stop ruminating...
I have OCD related to fear to become pedophile :
>> 1- Yesterday while driving...I've seen little boys...and just few secondes later I was asking..did you look at them sexually ?...i ruminated all the day.
>> 2- Tomorrow while watching TV...I saw a Add on TV with a Male man...I was thinking "ohhh he's cute, he's sexy !"...(althought i'm not homosexual) but juste after ...few seconds later I was wondering...was it really a Man...are U sure it was not a child ?...and I was not able to prove myself that it was an adult since the TV Add has changed. I've tried all day long to see The Add again to check if it was a Man or a Boiy without success.
>> Can OCD make you doubts about your own thoughts like : "Did I think about it when seeing this Guy ?" or "Was it a Guy and not a Child ?"..etc.