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first I would like to introduce myself. I am a 19 year old male from the netherlands and I suffer from HOCD acoording to my therapist. I would like to share my story and hope to get a advise or just a general response.
Ok Last year I had a few dramatic life events that really had a big impact on me. Before last year I was a happy ''normal straight man'' but I always had a sort of predisposition to obsessive thinking (for instance I would know al my grades by hearth and more of those small things) anyway after these life events I felt like crap for a few weeks. But then things got a bit better after some time but I did not feel strong mentally. Every time I heard about a disease I projected it on myself (for instance I read somewhere that a 30year old man got Alzheimer an I worried I might get it too or a good friend of mine was diagnosed with aspergers syndrome and all of a sudden I worried I might be like that too or I might become schizophrenia) all these random stupid thoughts. What I did then is I went to my family physician and she was going by everything and asked a very routine question: "Are you aware of your sexual identity?'' the it was like a switch turned inside my head and the worries came "am I gay'' then I tried watching gay porn only to result in me almost throwing up. but then the seed of HOCD had settled... and every time i got near a guy (even my own cousin) I felt urges to kiss them and do other stuff with them. Suddenly every guy I looked at was ''cute'' or ''sweet'' very confusing... I walked around with this for a couple of months before I went to my university's psychologist and she ''diagnosed'' me with HOCD which makes a lot of sense after having read about it. I am now in therapy and had 3 sessions. But I suffer from HOCD,POCD (pedophilia, this in response to a huge pedophilia gang they rolled up a few months ago in Amsterdam) and I sometime still think I have a form of autism.......

Greetings from the netherlands,


PS:maybe helpfull to mention: I am a muslim.

Hi Anno9999, I'm not quite

Hi Anno9999,

I'm not quite sure what your question is. I commend you for going to a therapist, and I hope it is someone who is skilled in terms of treating OCD.

Rather than say you have "HOCD" or "POCD", I think it is likely more appropriate to say you have OCD. You may also have hypochondriasis (which involves a preoccupation with having various medical conditions).

I will say that the question, "Are you aware of your sexual identity?" is not (to my awareness) a routine question for a physician to ask, unless you are seeing the physician for sexually related symptoms.

I encourage you to continue working with your therapist. It is best to discuss any questions or concerns with her, and work on those in your therapy questions.

I hope you start doing better soon!

Dr. Lane

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