Hocd is ruining my life!!!

Hi I am an 18 almost 19 year old male, I am terrified into thinking I'm turning gay. To make matters worse I have fallen in love with a beautiful woman who I want to be with forever. I have always loved woman and all I want to think about is woman . So anyways I've had this for 3 months and it is killing me!!! I can't look at any guys period , I feel so uncomfortable , my worst fear is losing my beautiful girlfriend :( she has been supportive for me the whole time. I fear that I won't get better and that these thoughts will drive me to insanity !!! I just to feel the same feelings I had before towards my girl and I want to be able to think of have sex with her without getting gay thoughts stuck in my head , they cause me soo much pain and I get soo sick that I want to throw up and be left alone. It kills me to be like this , I can't even hear the word gay without freaking out and getting anxiety. I don't want these thoughts because I'm latterly afraid to look at any guy including my own dad , because my head is telling me I want to live that way but deep down inside I know I am straight because I have never though of guys like that , only girls , and girls are the only ones that turn me on, when my head tells me otherwise I get filled with anxiety . Also people who give crap advice like just accept being gay ? If that's not who I am then why would I do that ? Like really , that makes my anxiety soo bad , so I know that what I'm feeling is not loss of interest in woman , it's my hocd playing mind games . Can anyone help me get over this ?!?!

ocd self test
Do you or a loved one feel like you might have a problem with OCD? Take the Self Test now to get more information.

The information provided on brainphysics.com is designed to support, not replace, the relationship that exists between a patient/site visitor and his/her health professional. This information is solely for informational and educational purposes. The publication of this information does not constitute the practice of medicine, and this information does not replace the advice of your physician or other health care provider. Neither the owners or employees of brainphysics.com nor the author(s) of site content take responsibility for any possible consequences from any treatment, procedure, exercise, dietary modification, action or application of medication which results from reading this site. Always speak with your primary health care provider before engaging in any form of self treatment. Click here to read our complete Terms of Use.

Susbscribe to our free newsletter for information & inspiration


BrainPhysics.com Social