OCD Diary

About Me

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A little about my story:

I was diagnosed with OCD during my final semester of college, just over a year ago. I can remember starting my rituals at a preschool age with hand washing. Each night I would confess my “sins” to my mom, apologizing for my shameful thoughts. I cried and have had a difficult time falling asleep at night since.

My OCD progressed as I hit my teens. I developed an eating disorder, which I started because of my OCD, not because I thought I was fat. During college, things really got out of hand. I could never get to class on time because I’d be doing rituals in the bathroom or locking my car over and over again. I’d broken car locking remotes from overuse as well as exhausting the locking function.

I felt guilty, ashamed, frustrated and in pain. I felt trapped in a box and suffered there totally confused. I thought I was a crazy, terrible person. I had no idea I had OCD and did my best to hide my crazy behavior. The thought of reaching out was not an option.

I was later diagnosed with severe OCD by my college counselor of whom I had eight sessions with where I learned about accepting that I had OCD as well as discussing some of my options. It was a start.

This blog is about what I have discovered to work (and not work) for me. I advocate my experiences only, and am in no way responsible for your choices. I am not a doctor and do not pretend to be. I simply hope in sharing my story, I can help others in pain.

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