Self-Therapy + Yoga

Im getting less spikes now, I am doing exposure therapy on myself, I do yoga first, calm me down, than i do exposure, I look at pictures of good looking dudes in pride parade pictures on google, and I just browse and browse and browse and browse and browse and browse, at first I would still get anxiety and spikes, but now I look at so much pics, that I dont even check or bother to check, and I try to tone down my anxiety, without checking. My anxiety is still here, I think my first biggest step is to be able to stop checking and let it all blend into the background, Ive read that compulsions make it worse, thats why I want to stop my checking compulsion. Yoga helps me calm down, because I wouldnt be able to do exposure therapy if I couldnt calm down. my favourite chant in yoga is Sah tah mah nah, I chant while I do exposure it helps to keep anxiety down and to prevent another panic attack, when I get terriffying ocd thoughts, I force them away, and recongize that they are ocd and not real, and are a waste product of the mind, I focus on yoga, and I revaluate, I concentrate a little more on Sarah, the more questions I ask the more I fear, thinking about Sarah is my last desperate fall back, I dont like using it that much, but it just keeps me alive.

-TheGeneral