This is brandon again, the other post got flooded with me posting over and over, but really this is hard on me and i need help, these thoughts are starting to make believe that i am attracted? This is really driving me nuts, and things will happen that will make me really think the worst and it is so believable i dont know what to think anymore. I have said most of the stuff that has been on my mind, but i just wish i could get rid of these thoughts. There was this girl i began talking to and i started to like her a little, then my friend got her and i was so depressed, and all night i cudnt stop thinking about that and then these thoughts, i cudnt sleep and i didnt want to do anything, now its like i dont even want to talk to her, i dont have the urge, and these hopefully hocd thoughts and urges seem so real, its so hard to tell, i say i dont want it, what does that mean, and i have mentioned that i have started remembering some stuff in my past, now i dont know if those thoughts mean anything but its starting to make me worry that i have just ignored the past, i dont know there wasnt any times where i had a crush on anybody but it was more like weird actions, its hard to explain. I basically punch my wall everyday in anger but i does nothing. Please help, you have done alot already but this is really starting to worry me and it is starting to make me think i actually want the thoughts.