Is this Hocd ?

Look, I know I posted this a lot of times, but I’m going through so much confusion in my life, it started around 2 months ago, and my mind hasn’t rested thinking about it since...and I keep posting it because some are saying I’m either gay/bi/straight/obsessive..And I really have no clue what to think, if someone could give me an accurate answer, I will not post this again, thanks

I am 14 years old and male by the way. I can’t go through another day, I’m going through hell wondering if I’m straight or gay and its really tearing me apart, I have always been straight NEVER EVER thought of guys this way until a few months ago, I have always loved girls, everything about them, their bodies, girl porn, flirting with them, kissing them etc, but a few months ago I was masturbating but wondered instead of using my hand I wonder if I could use my mouth, so I touched my penis with my tongue, (yes I reached) which triggered unwanted gay thoughts into my head and they are not going away, I obsess, I test myself by thinking gay thoughts to reassure myself I won’t get hard. I have always made fun of gays and stuff. I have never fantasized about boys to climax and they say that’s how you know you’re gay but I have to think of girls and I still masturbate to girl porn, You may be thinking this guy is totally straight but it’s not as easy as that, I don’t know if I’m gay or not, it’s so annoying. Sometimes, I start to panic, when I think that, I may enjoy sex with a guy, but I don’t think I would want to have sex with a guy. I am not emotionally attracted to a guy either, I have never wanted to be in a relationship of be romantic with a guy. When I think about it though, I don’t get an erection; I have never got an erection from a guy. I’m so confused, why can’t I let this go?
If I’m gay-it wouldn’t make sense, I get aroused by girls and not guys...
If I’m bi- it’s still the same case, how could I be if I’m not aroused by guys?
If I’m straight-why am I thinking so much about it?
I decided to match my symptoms to that of HOCD sufferers.
Here are symptoms of a HOCD suffer: http://www.brainphysics.com/hocd.php) Just scroll down to “Typical symptoms of HOCD” I have all of these symptoms, but I’m not sure about the last, one as I don’t know what it means.
Sometimes I also panic, and wonder if I have been gay all my life, but I’m 99% sure I have not been! Also, sometimes I wonder if I sit/walk in a feminine way, but then I see people walking in the street the same way AM NOT GAY !, SO WHY DO I KEEP THINKING I AM !Sometimes I also panic, and wonder if I actually like men. This has to go away, also, if I do have HOCD, how can I break the news to my parents?

Also, if YOU SUFFER FROM HOCD ARE YOU GAY ?